Wandering Thoughts

As the Christmas season has already been over, I finally feel like letting off some thoughts that's been running through my mind. This year is coming to an end and I'm reminiscing of the events that have occurred. The only real memorable thing that I can really smile most about is Rm83 reunion. This does not mean that everything else in the year was meaningless, but it's just not as unique and weird. In any case, I shall break down categories of my life and summarize them all.

First and foremost, my strong relationship with Jen. It's growing as always. Our future is not so bright as we want it to be, but we still strive for it as long as we got each other. That is something I know for sure and won't be needing any reassurance. We're both being pessimistic as of late due to the economy and just life hitting us, but at least we're in it together so it does not feel as bad as it sounds. I'm just happy that I got someone to share my up and down moments with.

School... this year is actually the best year yet. Took care of my shit over summer with Jen's extreme support and finally got into architecture. I studied stuff that I've been waiting to learn for the past 10 years and it was awesome. A great experience and I've learned a ton of stuff that you'd only learn on the job thanks to a great teacher. Unfortunately, the more I study it, I understand that it is not necessarily the career for me. As heartbreaking as it is, I must to come to admit that architecture is not the best choice possible, and for a certain and stable future, the best must be chosen. Therefore, I've decided to go back to civil engineering. Sure it sounds boring and crazy, but it'll pay the bills. That's what matters to me so I'll say that this major will make me happy.

Job... the beginning of this year was great, but it worsened as time passed. Eventually, the store I worked at closed down a little over 2 months ago and I was laid off. It was a really great job cuz I had a kickass co-worker who shared a whole load of common interest with me, but every great thing must come to an end. I ended up getting a temp job at Circuit City which was a desperate move on my part and now they are not giving me hours at all since I was hired as a seasonal associate anyways regardless that I applied under part-time. I'm bitter, but I put up with it until now that I'm not given any hours. With that being said, I have to find a new job now and deal with the shit because I desperately need a financial resource.

Family... I've been slowly drifting from my parents since I've been having the problems listed above that I didn't have enough time to spend with my parents. I feel like I'm failing them as their only child in nearly every aspect possible. I hate to say it, but it's true that I really wish they had a better child that would actually take care of them instead of still watching out for me at this extent. No matter what I say, they are my parents. They can put up with me because if they can't, then I wouldn't still be around them at all. Just a little more and maybe I can do my share and lift some weight of their shoulders.

Rm83... my best buddies. I can't imagine how much they've put in to help mold me into who I am the way I am. Yes, I blame them for making me so bizarre. Anyways, similar to my parents, I've slowly drifted away from them too due to more "prioritized" problems. Well, at least I'm not draggin them down with my own problems so I think that's fine with me at the least. Moreover, happy birthday to a special Mr. Joe Choe for finally turning 21 although our Chris Sap has already turned 22... yeah...

Ok, this blog was mainly written because last night, Jen and I stayed up and talked to her cousin Monica until like 3am to help her let off some stress. As we talked, I came into realization that I am not really qualified to give Monica any word of advice because I'm struggling in my own life. Why should my words mean anything to her when she and I are in the same shoes? Maybe I should follow the advice that I've given her: "Prioritize your problems and tackle the ones you can solve the quickest."

contemplation

I have 1.5 months of vacation until school starts again which is February 2nd, 2009. For the time being, I gotta find something to do. Jen and I are planning for a small trip to get away together. We're looking at a small cruise at the Caribbeans in the middle of January which sounds really good due to the price that'll be barely above $500... ok around $530. Best part is the sushi bar that's all included. Each night of sushi is like $50 already... and we're planning to stay for 4 nights which makes it $200 of sushi alone. $330 left... French food too! Yeah, I'm really leaning towards that cruise.

Funny thing was that my cousin Lou asked me if I wanted to go to San Fran with him next week. Sounds fun, but I gotta think about it obviously. However, I'm favoring the cruise due to obvious reasons. A week with my gf or my cousin? Wow, what a hard decision. On top of that, I don't think I could afford both trips.

In any case, time for lunch. Noodles and BBQ pork.

The game of LIFE is fun. I like suing Martin.